Monday, August 30, 2010

I love the beaches..love it..love it..












Hari Sabtu(28 August 2010)..pergi Pony ride..the one that pulls the horse is one of my friends from Saudi Arabia..
pergi Danga Bay..Six of us have great moments
Lepak at beach..there are many stories to be shared..
I just love the beach..
I am the one ,who wants to go there..
I love the beaches..love it..love it..
Taking pictures..
We have fun..
I love my friends
Tamimi,Mujtba,Amira,Aiman...I love u all,Guyz...
U Guyz..Friends Forever...
Coz u guyz never leave me alone...

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Air mataku...

Air mataku,
Jangan temani aku,
Tolonglah tinggalkan aku,
Pergi

Air mataku,
Jangan sekali kembali,
Aku tidak inginkan memori,
Yang hanya memakan diri

Perjalanan ini,
Masih jauh lagi,
Aku merayu,
Kekuatan daripada ilahi

Air mataku,
Tolong pergi,
Ya Allah,jangan biarkan aku begini.

Anis speaks up
In class Software engineering and Architechture
after i got a call from my mama..
UNEXPECTED conversation that burst me into tears!!!

















Sunday, August 22, 2010

Wishing u a happily ever after

Ikhlas for my friend that is quite far away who is getting married soon..
Conguratulations...
every meets had been assigned by Allah..
We should be glad that we are given a chance to feel
every challenges in our life
No matter what it is
I must accept that happily
It is given by Allah
Of course i will like it
A present from my creator
for me
There is a blessings in anything that happened
Thanks Allah
i love this journey..

-anis and her life-

Dont ever say anything

Dont tell me anything
leave me here
i never hate you
i never be angry with you
i will always be here
always my creator besides me
telling me about patience
and tolerance
the fate is there
u cant change that
we must accept that willingly
happily
dont care about me
leave me
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Friday, August 20, 2010

Goodbye surrounding..

I am such a good liar
To myself
Keep on lying to myself
But it does not last long
Tears do coming
Not stopping
Until my head is booming
I cant keep going
My soul is weaken
I am dying
In my living
I feel like jumping
When my window is opening
But i knew i am not doing
Even crazy mind is telling
Oh Allah..
To you,i am believing
To myself,i am lying
pretending
to keep moving
but when i am leaving
Eyes are bursting
No matter who is my surrounding
go away from me,go away from me
Plz,leave me,leave me,leave me,leave me,leave me

I am leaving
Goodbye surrounding..
and i am not joking
or playing
coz i am not lying
to anyone that i am believing
Not like that someone i am knowing
no..no..no..
never..never..never..
Goodbye surrounding..

wiped away =)



Thursday, August 19, 2010

Sudden moment!!



Dinner here on 19 august 2010,11 PM

I do not know,
Suddenly
I am so happy
I could not stop smiling
But no one is joking
But i keep on smiling
isn't that amazing
when you are falling
in the mood of loving
everything is smiling
And you keep denying
But your heart keep on saying
And your mind keep on thinking
Nothing
Could be saying
Words are closing
Door is opening
Loving
Happening
Thank you darling..
Thank you darling..
Thank you darling..

Coz it is so loving..

--anis lovin't--

I am in You Tube for 1MIT

I am in You Tube for 1Malaysia Innovation Tournament representing
University Technology Malaysia

I am so happy...
My team is ready for the challenge..
Excalibur team are fantastical!!
Watch out GUYZ!!

Jokes for the day
I would have fallen in love with someone that could recognize me in the video
(Hint:Green Baju Kurung with a flowery green hijab)

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Thanks Allah,i was so happy today


Today was one of the happiest moment in my life
Even the day starts with tears
But it ends up with a big smile and a new spirits in me
I have 3 events today
And it is a stepping stone for me
To be a successful career lady
in my life
I have 2 events with Microsoft Malaysia
and one event which is Annual General Meeting
as an Exco of Research And Innovation of my faculty society
The two events with Microsoft was great enough
I was introduced as a Student Ambassador for Microsoft
in front of hundreds people
Wow.. it was great
Alhamdulillah
I never thought of that
And now i knew all the bad things are happened
for something that is much more better
And I have a dinner with the other 2 student ambassadors and
Also with Microsoft Evangelist
Wow,i really felt like I am turning my malay essence into a global essence
haha..
We are communicate in several issues and technology
Of course..for sure..
Now,i am focusing on the people around me
And i need to be the best
on my computer skills
and also in human resources
So,i could meet many people
and get a good job
and get a chance to help more people
That would bring me to travel to many places especially overseas
with many great friends and the top careers
So that i could learn more from them
And i had planned on my own business
And Microsoft Evangelist,Ian said i should starts on ebay and some of my friend already did that
And they gain good profit..
and I knew that a better job offer is coming as well
I would plan to continue my part time master studies in marketing+finance if i got a good salary job offer..
And since a possibility to get a research grant and a scholarship
Are coming on my way too
And i need to make a wise decisions..
I would revenge everything with fame and success
And i knew Allah would help me along the way..
Thanks for everything that Allah had given to me
I appreciate everything that is bad and good willingly..
It makes me a step beyond my thinking that i never had before this
Thank you Allah
Thank you Allah..

anis smiles at everyone that would put her down..
and she will move on
and dont care about what that someone had done to her
even she felt that was unfair
But she would accept that
As she believes that Allah is fair in everything
I would just let Allah judges that someone..
I am just an ordinary human being
And nobody is perfect..
Thank you Allah
For being with me
All the time
And give me everything
Thank you Allah..
Thank you Allah..

Monday, August 16, 2010

Let the time be my best friend

Let time be my best friend
My best friend ever ever after
My best friend that will let me know
What are the reasons for everything
That had happened on me
And why it is me
And why it is always be me
And why it is me
Please,please tell me
Why it must be me??(Crying...)
It is me
That have to go through all these
But,Alhamdulillah ,I had all that moments
Of bad and beauty over all the moments
Perhaps a happy ending is with me
No matter in the world
Or after this
i am tired over these
and i am just around my twenty
Dont let me fell uneasy
But i have to face all these
And i had a lot of past moments with me
Enough..enough..about me
I want to have another story
But let it be a sweetie
not a freaky
But i would prepare myself to be ready
For everything that would happened on me
Please Allah help me..
Be with me..Near to me..
dont let me
Only be with me
I feel it is not that easy
But i knew
Only You could help me..
Please Allah help me..
help me..with everything around me
And i knew a happy smiley
Is waiting for me
and my best friend would tell me
Thank you Allah for giving me
A chance to be me
Alhamdulillah

It is me..

-anis speaks harmly to her soul-

An Opportunity

Thanks Allah
For giving me an opportunity
to feel the pain
For giving me an opportunity
to cry
to let go
things that had make me suffer
And to what i could have in the future
Cause i am sure
A beautiful ending is there
But Allah
Give me strength
To ease the pain
To let go off the sadness
To let go off the madness
Please Allah,please
Give me strength
And give me a spirit
to move on
Cause i knew that there are million miles away remains
To eat my soul violently
When I could only
Smile hardly
And i knew it will ends with a big smiley
Thank you Allah

Lukisan hati,jiwa dan perasaan,
anis

Friday, August 13, 2010

And I just LOVE IT

Imagine Cup Team Invitation


Inbox

Today,it is such a beautiful day,Alhamdulillah.
Everything is fine and i have a conversations with Dr.Shashi.
He is such a very kind doctor.
Thanks for that.
I have my Asp.Net advanced and Software architecture and Design today and so do tomorrow.
But i still have a few things undone and seems now is Ramadhan month.
I should advice myself to plan my schedule properly.
Time is very precious and irreplaceable.
Projects,Assignments,Test,Work,Society,Microsoft Student Partner,Imagine Cup Competition ,Enhancing computer skills, polishing talent etc...

----An email invitation in joining Imagine Cup Competition---
~~~And I just LOVE IT~~~~
Excalibur team is going to shake it,shake it like a spinning disc!!
Watch out GUYZ!!!


|
ic11@imaginecup.com
to me

show details 3:26 AM (18 hours ago)

Are you ready for the Imagine Cup? Are you excited to compete? Well great news, Excalibur has invited you to participate with them in the Imagine Cup competition! All you need to do is go to the Imagine Cup website at www.imaginecup.com, log in and check out your profile page. You will see the invite and the option to Accept or Decline the invitation—it’s that simple!

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Aku tidak akan kembali lagi

Kadang-kadang kita tak sangka
Orang yang kita paling sayang dalam dunia pun
Boleh pentingkan diri
Nak buat macam mana
Mungkin dah memang dunia sekarang mcm ni

Mungkin kerana sikap aku sendiri
Yang suka sangat menyendiri
Alhamdulillah
Atas segala dugaan ini
Mungkin ada hikmah suatu hari nanti

Tapi bila sesuatu di luar dugaan kita
Apa lagi yang kita nak kata
Sabar je ler
Nak wat mcm mana
Kita takde kuasa

Tapi hati wanita mudah terluka
Cuma tak ternyata
Di wajahnya
Meskipun hidup tak seindah cinta bidadari bidadara
Dia tetap dalam kesabarannya

Mengharungi segalanya
Sehingga terbeban di jiwa
Bertakung di mata
Itulah luahan jiwanya

Aku tak pernah merasai perasaan ini
Tapi yelah kalau balik pun jarang sekali
Dan bila nak balik pun ada halangan itu ini
Tak ke terguris juga perasaan hati

Memang mulut sentiasa terkunci
Tapi fahamlah perasaan anakmu ini
Tolonglah jangan buat begini
Anakmu bukan kecil lagi

Sudah dewasa dan matang berfikir lagi
Janganlah beri jawapan yang anakmu boleh mencari
jalan lain yang lebih baik lagi
Dan jangan pula memanggil anakmu dengan “kau”

Aku tak suka sangat perkataan tu
Paling aku benci
Paling aku benci
Paling aku benci

Dan luahan ini hanya dalam khayalan mimpi
Tidak pernah terlukis dalam realiti
Kerana aku lebih senang hidup dalam fantasi
Dengan pelakon dan pentas sendiri

Melakarkan lukisan jiwa ini
Dalam air mata ini
Menunggu waktu untuk terus pergi
Pergi jauh dari sini

Ke tempat yang aku sendiri tak pasti
Tapi bila tiba ke destinasi
Aku tidak akan kembali lagi
Meninggalkan semuanya dan pergi

Pergi
Pergi
Pergi

Jauh dari sini
Jauh dari sini
Jauh dari sini

Lukisan jiwa,
anis..
11.50pm
Wednesday
4.8.2010

Monday, August 2, 2010

Ada kalanya


Dalam hidup ini
Ada kalanya kita sangat kuat
tapi ada kalanya kita sangat lemah
Dan kerana itu air mata ini
menitis sendiri
Tanpa kusedari

Kerana hanya tangisan
yang mampu mentafsirkan
Dan cukuplah sekadar tangisan
Yang jiwa ini mampu melukiskan

Kerana ada insan
yang tidak mampu mencurah isi hati
dengan lisan sendiri
Dan hanya mampu menangis sendiri

Biar hidup ini
Menjadi rahsia diri
Biarkan aku sendiri
Kerana selagi yang aku percayai

Hanya Tuhanku sebaik-baik Penolong diri ini
Ketika sendiri
Dalam kesedihan ini
Hanya kepadaMu
aku berkongsi..

Lukisan jiwa,
anis