Friday, December 20, 2013

It has been some time that I want to write this. I hate my life I hate of being me I hate of being so concern of what other's feel And no one actually cares about me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want to die :'( I want to die :'( I want to die :'( I want to die :'( I want to die :'( I want to die :'( I want to die :'( I want to die :'( I want to die :'( I want to die :'( I want to die :'(

Monday, May 13, 2013

Hi friends,
I am writing this because i have no one to talk to
probably i prefer to write than talk because a pen is just my best friend all the time. It is okay.
But I appreciate all of the people around me. I am just nobody I cant be perfect I am just nothing
I am just me and I always be myself which sometimes no one can accept that.
Or I am just too afraid that I probably hurt someone with my words.
Thats okay.
Let me just be me and my pen Maybe I could say keyboard but mostly a pen is closer to me.
I am kinda dissappointed when everybosy just see the outcomes and judging me instead of taking into considerations all challenges that i have to strive in order to survive.
I do not a single cent from you but why are you threating me in this way.And actually I received a few marks for my MBA which is not bad actually but because of my expectation is too high ,I end up crying almost everyday right after I finishes my class ,and tiredness accompany me while driving home.
Crying and driving,I am trying my best to reach my destiny. Please wait for me, each steps I had taken is one step closer to our dreams.
I am sorry if I do not get 4 flat for my MBA but for your info I had sacrifice all my time, my youth time with friends and all I can in order to make evrything falls into the right place which I would never know and I can just pray that it will always happen one day and it is just a matter of time. Please be with me.
No matter what happened,I had promised myself that I would spend my lifetime for loving you and I will do my best just to prove that I am right.
And sometimes, I understand that silence is the best thing to do. Thanks for everything.

Saturday, March 9, 2013

Graduated and System Analyst



Now the time is 4.23am Saturday, 9th March 2013


Hi great people that are reading my entry,thanks a lot for visiting my site.Miss you guyz...


It has been quite some time,that I do not even open up my blog right after my final semester when I was a degree student and graduated in 2011.I am now working with my 2nd job,as an System Analyst at IT and Data Centre of Standard Chartered Bank.


My first job was as Marketing Exec.Love it but there are reasons that I left that company.


I am not that happy with my job,I hate IT but that’s my field and I guess that is real life. Sometimes,we have got a job that we hate the most and we have to do it in order to earn a better living. But I do believe that,in order to be the best,I must do everything honestly and with LOVE.So,i did plan for another job.


And for sure, people are never enough of what they have but I appreciate whatever things that are around me. Maybe sometimes,I am not showing it physically but I do appreciate even every little things. Because life is short and I wish I could enjoy every moment of it. My job make my day sometimes whenever I received compliments from users.


Here is 1 of it:


Thanks dear for ur appreciation.


LOTS OF LOVE
Anis